AWAKENING

awakening

I stand at the edge

feel the pull of a lonely call

lost in the sound... as I wait...

for the words to wash into shore

I can't turn away

it's always the same

with the first, cold kiss of the sea

I drown again

and the world turns slowly thru space

as the night folds over the day

I stare at the moon

a pale reflection against the night

pressing my eyes until shapes

in the shadows, swimming to life

the burst of a star

and it’s over again

but the taste of the words lingering still

I’m left to explain

and the world turns slowly thru space

as the night folds back into day

hear the whispers on stone

on a ribbon of sound,

twisting & diving the ghost of a song

and it swims inside my head

until slowly the dawning

the voice I hear calling is that of my own

now

tell me a lie

all I need is one more time

to look into the sun

just let me feel

the ocean breeze upon my face

I want to hear the seagulls cry

there are no tomorrows

we only dream of yesterday

there is just this moment

until it burns away…

let’s take a drive

we could hit the speed of light

just don’t say good-bye

I’m so afraid

I don’t want to see forever

I just want to be right now

there are no tomorrows

we only dream of yesterday

there is just this moment

until it burns away- don’t let it slip away…

stir up the fire

we should burn down every wall

let’s get out of control

‘cause there are no tomorrows

we only dream of yesterday

there is just this moment

until it burns away-

there are no tomorrows

only dreams of yesterday

there is just this moment

until it burns away- don’t let it slip away-

don’t let it fade away…

gone

here I go again

sliding down this slippery path

falling straight into your trap

I guess I’ll never learn

there you go again

stripping me of my defenses

with that look I well remember

I can hardly breathe at all

and who knows

where this is going?

I tell myself

I’m still completely in control - (yeah yeah)

here we go again

swimming dizzy in the moment

maybe this time could be different

if we let it go

I should have turned away pretending

not to hear you call my name

but now I’m tangled in your story

like I don’t know how it ends

and even though I should know better

I still believe every little thing you say to hold me

and you still hold me

so here I go again

sliding down this slippery path

just can’t seem to break your grasp

I guess I’ll never learn

frozen

I haven’t changed the house at all

everything’s exactly as it was the day you left me

I’m so afraid to make it real somehow

I just keep hoping that it’s all just a dream

but they tell me it’s time to heal

say I should be moving on

and they promise the pain will weaken

as time marches on

the curtains in the bedroom move

I’d swear it’s you, whispering to me

the sheets are almost wearing through

and still they bear the feel of you

I can still hold you near… after all these years…

so maybe it’s time to heal

and to think about moving on

but I know I’ll be frozen here when

time marches on

and I try to be strong as I push through my days

but I just don’t belong here

when everything I used to be was so entwined in you

that I have nothing left inside- I’m living not alive

and I will bear the cross of time…

she

she is a loathsome creature

she is the end

she is the deadliest sin

she is your friend

but you left the door open

you left the door open

and you were not looking

she gets in between

she’s planting seeds

she is pure white innocence

she’s not what she seems

but you left the door open

you left the door open

and you were not watching

she is a lie

she’s a fucking parasite

but you left the door open

you left the door open

you were cool, waiting

she never saw it coming…

blood on the statehouse

I hate you

I don’t even know your name

but I hate you

all the same

don’t step too close

you might spread the disease

I’m afraid that your stains could rub off onto me

you’re an erosion of a civil society

a subversion, perversion of sanctity

and there’s blood

on the statehouse floor

god knows how we’re dying to spill some more

I love you…

think I forgot your name

but I love you- I love you

yeah, we met on the internet yesterday…

should we make up a list of invitations

or rent a white limousine that can take us to vegas

well it’s perfectly legal to be married by elvis

and god will be smiling in heaven above us

and the blood runs

on the statehouse floor

god knows the souls he’s bleeding for

say

I guess I choked- the night we walked the beach alone

I tried the words- another empty whisper

there was nothing I could say- it’s all been said a thousand times

a thousand different ways to push around the same old line

how can I make it real?

how can I make it new?

how can I make you see the world

the way I do?

I feel too much- sometimes it’s paralyzing

my heart goes numb just to keep from bursting

you thought that I was cold- slipped your coat around my shoulders

I’ve never been more alone… or more alive

how can I make it real?

how can I make it new?

how can I make you see the world

the way I do? (the way I do?)

I wanted it to be perfect- pure and uncontrived

I wanted to show you all the dreams that I’ve been painting

with the colors in your eyes…

how can I make it real?

how can I make it new?

how can I make you see the world

the way I do?

how can I make it real?

how can I let you know?

how can I ever say how much

I love you?

melodrama

it's all over now

no matter what you say

the space between your lines

gives you away (you gave us away)

it's all gone now

dissolved and washed away

teardrops stinging, bleeding

down the watercolor painting of our love

don't say another word

you know you don't believe

just hold me in the stillness here

together as we breathe

it's too late now

the ending's compromised

betrayed to me in whispers,

softly shimmering reflections in your eyes

it's no use now

to question when you knew

that moment in your mind- you decide

this isn’t good enough for you

so say your good-bye

don't drag it on too long

the echoes in the stillness here

will die before you’re gone